I live in the moment. I appreciate people for who they are and for the role they play in my life. The two most common words that you will hear out of my mouth are ‘sorry’ and ‘thank you’. While I don’t deliberately hurt anyone, I apologize if it’s done unintentionally. I thank them for the smallest things because I want people to feel valued. Simply put, I don’t want any regrets – especially when it comes to letting people know what goes inside me. I was not always like this but I learned it the hard way.
The Flashback
Please pray for the maghfirah of my brother ‘Mustafa’. He passed away in an accident today. I went over Sarmad’s status twice before getting furious at the kind of joke they were playing at that time. “What is wrong with you all? This isn’t funny at all. Stop taking life for granted. You are crossing the limit.” I remarked angrily in our friends’ messenger group, followed by the other girls backing me up. “It’s not a joke”, Talha replied. Ezaz was just reading the conversation; he was too shocked to reply. Ezaz left the group.
“Call Mustafa and see if he’s fine”, I messaged a classmate while panicking. “Why aren’t you calling him yourself?” he asked. I had no words for him so I begged him to call and ask questions later. My whole body felt numb and I was shivering. Meanwhile, I silently prayed for his life, for all of this to be a prank, no matter how much the joke would normally disgust me. A few moments later my phone rang and I attended the call of that classmate. Within seconds, I disconnected the call, while the words echoed in my head.
“Mustafa has passed away”
Tears poured down my cheeks as I sat in my room, digesting the gravity of the situation. I stayed there expressionless for a while as the news settled in. He really was no more. All the memories of the past year flowed at the back of my mind. So many things were left unsaid when he left abruptly. The last conversation we had played over in my head and I went over a thousand different things that could have been said. I had never felt that helpless before. It made me realize the unpredictability of life.
How things in life were before…
Before this realization, I had always held back words that would form in my mind as I was too scared to bring the words to my lips. I was never able to tell my friends and family what they meant to me and most of the time, I didn’t even bother telling myself. I never pictured my life without them so I never gave them the value they deserved until that single accident that changed my life.
21 thoughts on “The Life Lessons A Sudden Accident Teaches”
I love you and whatever it is you write, however it is that you write and you’re an inspiration to many! While if i cud choose I’d never want you to live the hurt you had to deal with because of his passing away, i am but glad that you found a positive way to deal with it and allowed it to make u a more humble and expressive human being instead of the opposite.
More power to afifa khalid
Thankyou so much. It means a lot. ❤
Amazing article!!
Got me goosebumps…everyone has to go through such traumatic experiences
It means a lot ❤
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I remember all of this . It is still hard to accept the reality .
We have to accept it, and turn it into something that makes us stronger :’)
amazingly written!
Gave me goosebumps. Just shows how fragile life really is.
You never know what the next second might bring…🤍
Inspiring and saddening at the same time.
Afifa did a fantastic job for jolting the emotion in us awake
Thank you, Zara! ❤
I still remember his death bed face the face which used to glow brighter than any other. It was the only time I actually felt like I should die cause I knew he won’t be there anymore. I still remember “Naeem Bhai chaykhana Ka breakfast kra rahe ho next time” that time never came and it is weighing me down.
We all remember a lot of things which we wish should’ve happened a different way. If we were to know this would happen, I’m sure we all would’ve celebrated his life more than we already did…. And you’re lucky to have seen his death bed face, I only got to hear how he looked. I remember crying in my room when I wasn’t allowed to go to a different city for the funeral…
Trust me you were lucky to not see his face
Cause seeing it . It kills me everyday
We can only pray and hope he is in a better place. May Allah grant him the highest place in jannah.
Ameen. He’s definitely in a better place, Naeem. Don’t worry and stay strong! He wouldn’t have wanted it any other way! :’)
Ameen
I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. He’s extremely lucky to have his friends celebrate his memory years after his passing. May you all reunite with him in Jannah. Ameen.
Ameen. Thank you for your kind words. ❤
So sorry for your loss. It’s a great tragedy especially when you don’t get to express your feelings just because that person is no more there. This whole article has a lot to say and is really heart touching. A very well written article, thank you so much for sharing this story.
Thank you for your kind words! ❤
So heart wrenching and yet so brave of you to hold yourself together. Proud of you Afifa!!
Thank you, Hassan, it means a lot 🤍